I Am A Bully and How To Deal With Her.

I am writing this blog from my soul. Today I felt not so good and asked what is this all about? Why are we here etc etc etc.

Then I checked this site and came across some beautiful inspirational words on other blogs.

As I read them I realised that we are all on the same road, fighting the same demons and dragons and we are all having the same mad crazy thoughts. You know I actually believed that I was the only crazy person in this mad world – how selfish and arrogant is that?

Plus how STUPID is that? Me – the only person who feels sorry for herself!!!!

At this point I could have kicked my own ass if it was physically possible and then I caught myself at it again – feeling sorry for myself and bullying myself.

Yes I am a bully and I bully me.

I sneer at myself when I think I look ok. I laugh at my ideas of having a better laugh. The list can go on and on.

I have a full blown nasty piece of work living in my head and I allow her to bully and brow beat me and I accept it.

So this is where I stand up for myself, take a deep breath and look at her in the eye.

This is where I take back my personal power and kick her ass !!!!

At this point I have asked my angels to help me – remember we can’t do this on our own – and she is some girl !!!

Awareness and being in the moment and a lot of compassion will soon shut her up but in the meantime I have to remember who I am.

I am a spiritual being full of love, compassion and love.

HERE IS MY STRATEGY

Be in the moment

Check what is going on with me – who is talking?

Smile

Keep repeating the mantra ‘I am a beloved Child of God who is blessed and loved. I am safe’

Be nice to me – I need it always

Ask for divine help

Big love

When All Aound Seems Crazy, Go Inside and Be.

They say that the cure for any poison is close to the poison. These past few weeks I have been in a not so great place in my head. Even saying I am in my head is not great because it’s crazy in there.

Anyway I have been supping on the poison of my ego for a couple of weeks. Oh the misery for me and anyone near me !  The smell of burning martyr ( you know what I mean) was gagging and I rolled around in the ashes of my self esteem like my dog rolls around in grass. I lay there and I made sure I did it good. I believed all the crazy stupid daft poisonous crap my ego mind could feed me.

And I listened to it and I believed it – there you are. Bless me Father for I have sinned.

My house is full of every self help spiritual book going and I have read them all – what a waste of time and money that was !

What is/was the point of all of this if I was going to lie down and be walked over by little me !

What is the cure for this – go inside.

Go inside and breatheeeeeeeeeeee.   Yes I eventually clicked that my ego does not love me and will never love so what was I at?

So this morning I sat on my sofa and I breathed.

I breathed in peace – it was pale blue and I could see it seep deep into my body.

Then I breathed in baby pink love and it went deep deep into my being.

Then I sat and was. Like a gentle breeze I allowed the peace to gently drift me back to Source.

Then I forgave myself and I wrapped myself in love and settled into my heart space with God.

I wish you all peace and love in this beautiful precious moment in time.

The cure for everything is always close by – in your soul. So go inside and as a gentle as a whisper say Hi, I’m back.

God is there – always – and this is all free. It’s not in a book or  a poster but in your soul.

I wish you all peace and love and courage.

Big love